Jingwen

2012-01-23T01:18:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY everyone! (:

Love preparing for CNY. Had super loads of shopping spree with the churchmates. 3 WEEKS IN A ROW MAN. (Y) I think we've been addicted to shopping ever since we cam back from Japan. It was a great bonding session too. (:

Went to do my nails with sunshine! (: Heehee!

Looking forward to the mass bai nianing with the SN babes and hopefully the churchmates too! :D

CNY gathering with squadmates and reunion dinner with youth fellowship on Sunday! :D

期待期待~！^^

2012-01-15T02:40:00.002+08:00

I'm prepared for the worst, that I might get kicked out of RP.

Blame it on myself and my fucked up ego.

What have I achieved in my life so far anyways...

Nothing.

FUCKING NOTHING.

Might as well just disappear and make everyone's life easier.

2012-01-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

Do you actually realise that everything I tweet and post are related to you?

Everything has a connection to you.

This is how much you actually mean to me.

When would you even notice...

2012-01-03T01:59:00.002+08:00

I'm so used to seeing you almost eveyday during these 2 weeks of my holidays.

I think I'll die thinking of you.

Japan trip was really awesome. Shall post about it soon. (:

Steamboat dinner with the 93 & 94 peeps from church was really awesome. (: Really thankful for these bunch of friends that I've known ever since I was a child and I know we're all gonna grow up together in the love of God. Many more fond memories to come! (:

Really thankful that I'm born into a Christian family. I like how I'm really close with my churchmates and they are the ones that keep me close to God. Even though there are times where I might drift apart from Him, they would encourage me and bring me back to Him. (:

I've spent the last 2 weeks of 2011 with them and I really enjoyed myself, a lot. Really an awesome way to end off the year. And also, the first 2 days of 2012 was also spent with them. (: Thank you all so much. (: Thank God for each and everyone of them. They are really my blessing from God and I really cherish them so much. <3

2011-12-04T02:38:00.002+08:00

The past week was really awesome O School Recital and MAMA'11 :D

O School Recital was really inspiring and motivating to all dancers. Every item was amazing! It just made me want to work harder and be able to get through the auditions to perform on stage. Well, that's something I want to do before I turn 20. :D

Favourite items were popping, waacking (HAHA BIASED) and O Crew's item. O Crew's item was MIND-BLOWING. Like dope only please!

Went for MAMA'11 with TY on tuesday! :D

OMG!! IT WAS SO GOOOOOD! I mean, I got to see SUPER JUNIOR!!!! :D *fangirls*

The stage was awesome. It's quite cool to be at an event which telecasts live. All the cameras and how fast the backstage crew cleared the stage and how the artise ran from one end of the stage to another underneath. IDK but I like noticing such weird stuff. Hmm..

All the performances were damn nice! Favourite one was Super Junior (DUH.)! The Sorry Sorry part was damn cool lah! They had 100 backup dancers to dance with them. WAHLAU. I was so upset when I saw they only wanted MALE backup dancers. ): SEXIST.

Anyways it was really enjoyable and the boys won 3 awards! :D I cried with them when they gave the speech too! ): Too emotionally attached to them already.

Went MBS to 'stalk' cause Dean had a room there but I left at 1 after waiting for so long and not seeing a single one of them. He asked me to stay over but then isn't it awkward?! Like... okay.. AND THIS GIRL SAW RYEOWOOK IN THE LIFT. WAHLAU EH. WHAT IS THIS?! MY HUSBAND! OMG! ):

Didn't go to school for the whole of last week. IDK what I'm thinking man. I think everyone's starting to give up on me including myself. /: I NEED A WAKE UP CALL. I found something that motivates me to study harder but the other factors that are stopping are stronger.

DEAR LORD PLEASE HELP ME! I don't want to screw my life up... ):

2011-11-10T14:55:00.001+08:00

내꺼 하자 내가 널 사랑해

2011-11-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

I feel like I've given up on my studies already. ):

I've been going to school for only 2-3 days per week. /: How?

It sucks when you have nothing to look forward to in school. When you don't really have anyone close for you to talk to and hang around with.

What's worse is when people start talking. Not sure if they're talking about me but I'm just sensitive to all these things around me.

All my friends are doing so well and I'm here.. /:

IDK what my future's gonna be like man. I want to make it to university but with the looks of my GPA.. I can just totally forget about it. ):

Why is my life so screwed up? ):

I really need motivation for school. If not.. I'm just gonna waste my parent's money.

Year 2 is ending soon. 1/3 of the semester passed already. I need to buck up and try to catch up.

I seriously feel like a failure around my friends...

#SUJU6THYEAR

2011-11-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY SUPER JUNIOR!! ♥♥

Been an ELF since 2006 and I'll never regret joining the fandom. I love every single one of them and I really wish all 13 of them will be able to perform on stage again.

I'll be waiting.

I think I've grown too emotionally attached to these boys. All 15 of them (including Zhoumi and Henry). When they cry, I cry with them. When they're happy, I feel the same too.

Why do I love them so much?

I'm really inspired by the amount of hard work each of them put in the become what they are today. The hours of training and rehearsals they have, the super packed schedule they have, juggling their own personal schedules besides the ones with the group.

They're always giving their 101% because they don't want to let the ELFs down.

I hate how SM is treating them now.

No doubt that SM helped them to become who they are today but they amount of effort SM is putting in for the boys is getting lesser and lesser. I think they're just trying to ride off the popularity that they already have.

Super Junior will always be one of my motivation and inspiration to be a better performer.

I'm proud to be an ELF and I'll always be there for everyone of them.

오빠는 사랑해요!♥

우리는 슈퍼주니~어에요!!

우리는 엘프에요~! ♥

2011-10-30T01:35:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's with me these days. My motivation for school is like 0.

NOT GOOD. My attendance is damn bad please. Gosh. This cannot go on.

CJ's Project UP is back and I'm gonna give it a shot again.

Gonna be more ambitious this time. I'm gonna audition for both singing and dancing. No harm giving it a shot. At least I know where my standards are and I can improve from there. (:

Gonna discipline myself for the whole preparation period.

I CAN DO THIS.

(If only I'm so motivated for school....)

2011-10-25T12:36:00.003+08:00

OMG. I'm damn sad right now.
Only first day of priority sale of MAMA tickets and it's all solded out?!?! ):<
NBCB. There are people buy 30 tickets at one go? WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS?! I hate it when people buy so many tickets then sell at a really high price cause they know there's a high demand for it and people would buy from them. But WDH! ):
If there isn't that nonsense talk for IIP i would have poned and went to queue for tickets!

This is what happens when everyone is obsessed with kpop. ):

And then there's SS4 next year.
D:
Oh well....

2011-10-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

School's draining me out slowly.

It's only 2 weeks into school and I'm dreading it already.

It sucks cause I don't really have a lot of close friends in RP. IDK how I'm gonna pull through this whole semester. Modules are rather interesting but the people are.. judgmental. Too much politics and nonsense in my course.

It sucks when you're being over sensitive over every other thing. It really sucks when you don't have anyone close at all. No one I can really rely on, no one I can really trust. I seriously think I'm like some loner in school. ):

I guess I'm just insecure.

Exactly 2 more months till term break. I CAN DO THIS.

2 more months till Japan trip with my awesome bunch of friends.

Thank God for my churchmates.

They never fail to make my weekends really wonderful and they are the ones I'm really comfortable around.

Thank God for putting them into my lives.

"Dear God,

I place the rest of the semester into Your hands. I know that You will guide me through any obstacles that come my way and I know I can make it through smoothly with You guiding me along the way.

恳求你让我学习不要在意别人对我的眼光，然而，让我学习怎样接纳和爱他们。

我我所有的重担都交在主的圣手中，救主你掌管一切。

Amen"

2011-10-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

我觉得我把你当的太重要了..

而我，在你生命里不过是个普通朋友..

2011-10-05T21:58:00.002+08:00

Today marks the start of Year 2 Sem 2.

I hope everything's gonna be alright. No conflicts please. I just want to do well and have a better GPA compared to my current one.

Anyways. I've finally started Korean lesson! ^^

2011-09-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

Too many things happening to my family.

I hope everything's alright...

I'll die if my family falls apart. They're the only ones I've got.

The only ones I can rely on and the ones that will love me and I love forever.

Went for my uncle's funeral in M'sia on tues.

It kinda struck me real hard that they're my own relatives and yet I'm not close to them.

I remembered how he always talked to me whenever I went back to visit and say that he'll bring me to go eat durian at his house.

It's never gonna happen again..

So many deaths happening at my maternal side of the family this year. I don't know how my mum feels though.. And it's just one week after my 姨丈 pass away so.. :/

I felt like crying but I held back my tears cause it'll be really weird and yknow.. But I really hate to see someone I know lying motionlessly in there, knowing that they'll never be back again..

为什么我们总是在失去的时候才开始后悔..

是时候开始珍惜我们现在所有的东西,

一旦失去了，再也回不来了，包括家人，你所爱的人等..

不要让自己的人生有所遗憾,

因为到时候，就真的来不及了.

2011-09-11T02:09:00.001+08:00

I really wish we can be more then just friends...

2011-09-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

I guess no one really reads my blog I can rant a little here.

I really missed the times where we were all able to meet up anytime during the holidays. Everyone seemed to be really busy now. Or maybe, they've moved and not rather spend more time with their poly/JC friends compared to us.

I see people having so much time to go out with their poly friends and can't be bothered to reply what was posted on the FB group. Seriously.

Maybe it's just me. I'm not like them, able to find really good friends in poly. IDK. I just can't seem to bond with them like how I bond with people in SN.

I find that once you have a bf, friends somehow always come second. WTF is this.

And so much for saying that we won't drift apart once we've entered tertiary education. Look at us now. I really wish we would all be able to meet up again. At least once for this holiday.

I really miss you guys a lot, really.

2011-09-05T02:54:00.000+08:00

Alright. Changed my blog skin after a really long time. I'll edit the html when I feel like it.

2011-09-05T02:27:00.002+08:00

弟兄会 2011 was a blast. (: Really enjoyed myself :D

Really enjoy the times spent with the churchmates when you can laugh and go crazy anytime and anywhere you want. That feeling is really awesome.

I guess only around them I can truly be myself, not needing to worry about anything or will anyone judge me. And I really thank God for these bunch of awesome friends that will be with me for the rest of my life. :D

Holidays are finally here and thank God I found a job! :D So, I'll be able to use my own money for the things that I want like dance classes and concert tickets (SS4!) Gonna make full use of my holidays before school start. Really wish to catch up with my SN girls cause it's been really long since I saw all of them together. I want my clarke quay romance! <3

2011-08-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

One more paper and I'm done with UT3! JIAYOU JIAYOU!

Hopefully I'll be able to get a job so I can work during the holidays and during school term. It sucks how money is such an important thing in our lives. ):

Well, time to support myself. I need to pay for so many things, very paiseh ask from parents leh. :P

Most importantly, JAPAN!!! Wait for us! We're coming!! :D

OMG. I'm so excited for the trip even though it's in decdember. Kekeke~

2011-08-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

Never felt so tired before.

Studying is really energy draining. Having 2 modules in one day is no joke man. Esp when you spend your day in school studying for the second paper.

And what's the worst thing?

I studied so hard for Ethics and after the UT, I came out of class feeling like I didn't study for the test at all. ): This sucks. I want atleast a B!

3 more to go. Cross cultural tomorrow. 830 paper and I'm still here. Gosh.

JIAYOU JIAYOU.

2011-08-09T01:50:00.000+08:00

你说我傻傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻傻在爱她你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现

你说我傻傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻傻在爱她就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现

2011-07-24T20:43:00.002+08:00

At the rate I'm going, I think my future's gonna be screwed up.

Seeing how hard my church friends study makes me feel like a useless bum.

The rate that I'm skipping school, I might as well not go.

Something's wrong with me. Really wrong but I don't know why.

Sometimes I really wish I could just live in the past and not move forward.

I wish I was able to go back to sec 3 and study harder and get into the course that I really wanted and look forward to going to school everyday.

I wish I was like the others, open up to people easily and make friends with everyone.

Damn. I feel damn useless.

I don't know man. Sometimes I really wish I disappeared.

Things would be better for everyone I guess.

Who would actually remember me when I'm gone?

I think my life is full of regrets.

When am I going to achieve something?

Gosh.

3 more weeks to the ends of semester. Gonna do my best for these 3 weeks and have a good rest during the holidays. 1.5 more years. PERSEVERE .

I'm handing everything thing to Him.

EVERYTHING. Including that issue that has been confusing me.

I know He'll guide me through everything cause He has His wonderful plans. (:

P.S I'm not emo. I'm just self reflecting.

2011-07-13T23:41:00.001+08:00

O School Recital.

My next goal. I want to stand on that stage.

That sense of satisfaction after performing the routine.

I want it back.

That, is the reason why I NEVER stop dancing.

2011-07-09T01:49:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU.

I think I'll end up hurting myself again...

2011-06-19T00:29:00.002+08:00

如果可以活在过去，我宁愿不要未来 - 醉后决定爱上你

因为我不敢去想像它会是怎样的..
我宁愿活在过去，那些快乐的时光。

我累了。

我很想念中学的那群好姐妹们。
上了理工之后我们都很少能碰面。
真的很怀念中学的那个时候，放学还能一起去吃饭，看电影等等..
你们好吗？我很想念你们..

It's only 1 weeks after school reopen and I'm so damn tired every single day.
Somehow time just seem to past real fast and when you know it, the day's over already.
School somehow just have the ability to drain everyone's energy for idk what reason.

2 more months till the next holiday. LONG HOLIDAY.
You can do it Esther.

"Everything is possible through Christ who strengthens me"

I guess I'm making a little improvement? I'll work harder! (:

I miss the SN bunch like crazy. We need to have sleep over or whatever nonsense soon man.
One thing that I'm really thankful for is to have a bunch of friends that will always be there for me no matter what and I really thank God for putting them in my life.

Churchmates, the ones that makes me look forward to weekends and the ones that makes them really wonderful. Pity that I won't be able to join them for the camp this year. ): It'll be really enjoyable with them around.

SN bunch. The ones that went through so much together. I really love you girls a lot and I really mean it. They were the reason why school was really enjoyable and it's really sad that we're all in different schools now and we can hardly meetup because of our clashing schedules.

This is life man. Not everything will go our way but let's just embrace it.
And leave everything to Him. (:

2011-06-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

Time check. It's june already.
It's scary how time flies. So many things that I want to achieve yet I don't have the courage and the ability to do it. Am I over ambitious?

这世界是残酷的。不管你再努力，都达不到水准。
回忆起以前，我是多么的像快点长大。可是现在，我真的很想回到小时候，每天都无忧无虑的过着。
现在..

我习惯了把所有的事都藏在心里。自己默默的想，看看那里可以改进，看看自己怎么解决。
可能就因为这样就很容易想太多..
在别人眼里，我可能很独立，很坚强但我还是希望有个人可以让我依靠，在我不开心的时候逗我笑，听我诉苦。
可能是害怕寂寞吧..
升上理工后我其实没有什么能谈得来的朋友。想找回中学的好姐妹但却有怕打扰她们。想找教会的朋友但也怕打扰他们。

真没用。

半年过了。我要达到的目标达到了吗？
我对我自己很失望。为什么那么不成器呀？只会纸上谈兵。说什么当DJ，当记者来着.. 都没有朝那个目标迈进。

醒醒吧！！

有时真的很羡慕我的朋友。人缘好，功课也好。我呢？根本是浪费社会资源嘛。): 不存在也罢。
有时我会想.. 如果我不在了，除了我的父母，还会有谁会记得我。
你会吗？

I need to stop thinking that one day I'll have a chance to be like those artist and make it big and be famous. Not everyone is so lucky.
No pain no gain. I'm not even trying hard enough.

I hate the fact that EVERYTHING is about money.
My daily necessities, dance classes and all the nonsense in this world.
I hate the fact that I'm so useless and a burden to my parents.
They are at the age of retiring and they are still working so hard for? ME. To provide for me. And how am I repaying them? ALL MY BULLSHIT AND UNNECESSARY NONSENSE.
I cry every time I think about what my parents have done for me and how much they love me and yet I'm not doing anything to make them proud. )':
I really breaks my heart to see them working so hard even when they are sick. Esp my Dad.
I think I suck as a daughter.

Dear Lord,
Please help me. I'm dying inside.
Please save me.
I don't think I can handle all these anymore...

Hello you, I think I'm starting to like you.. :/

2011-05-15T22:59:00.003+08:00

I need to stop being over sensitive towards everything.
I hate the fact that I cannot open up to people as quickly as others.
I hate the fact that it's already Problem 5 and I'm still freaking quite in class.
Seriously think that my classmates are starting to hate me.. :/

TALK MORE LAH! OUTSIDE SCHOOL TALK SO LOUD IN SCHOOL ACT LIKE SOME SHY PERSON FOR WHAT.

I'm trying.. But I think I need to try harder.
I need to overcome that barrier inside and stop thinking too much about every action that I make.

2011-04-25T23:15:00.003+08:00

Year 2 offically started last week. Still can't believe but yes, I'm in 2nd year already.
My class is still not bad. STILL NOT BAD. I hope it continues like that. I really need to speak up more in class. I'm killing my grades man. ):

There's SLA this wednesday and thursday. I'm gonna sign up for hip hop again.
Really hope I'm able to get in this time but I'm super not confident about the bboy part. I can't do bboy for nuts leh :/ OTTOKAE? ): And the choreo must contain 50% hip hop 50% bboy. D:
Maybe I'll just practice at home the basic moves and stuff.
I really want to get in man. It's super awesome lah! You get to perform for so many events and stuff. Ayeeee...

Have been seeing J around school and when I walk to school these few days. (:
Super happy can! :D
I'll be even more happy if I were to get into HH. ^^

I really like to see you perform.
You really shine and I really wish I'm able to be like you one day.

2011-03-15T12:31:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to believe that the second coming is near.
It's only 3 months into 2011 and look at all the things that have happened. Egypt and Librya's political issues, Major earthquakes in Christchurch, Yunnan and Japan.. I'm starting to worry what's going to happen next.

I'm really thankful that I'm born in Singapore. We don't have to worry about any natural disasters and any political instablilty. But it's really sad to see these things happening around the world and I can't do anything to help them. Well, all I can do is to pray for them.

Believe in the power of prayer. (Y)

I still have so many things not done, so many things left unsaid.
I don't want all these to end so fast..

2011-02-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

Finally done with my first year in poly. Well, I really thank God for letting me pull through the whole academic year. Being in CCC is really tough. I don't know who I can really trust in my course. The people are .. 虚伪. Double faced. Attention seeking. Well, that's all I can say for now. Not that I'm really good or anything but I just want to stay low profile in the course and be a normal student. I don't want to be in any famous cliques that everyone is afraid to apporach and talk to. I just want a few friends that I can be close and talk to. I really don't see the point in people going to school and hating on each other. PLEASE GROW UP. How old are we? Hating on people doesn't make your day better. Being famous in school doesn't mean that you'll be successful in life. 醒醒吧，不要以为全世界在为你而转.
I'm not pin-pointing anyone but I just don't like the feeling of being hated and being ostracized cause it has happen to me too many times already. I hate it when people judge you based on your looks and the way you dress. Hate is a strong wrong but yes, I HATE IT.
Okay, I should stop ranting. Must remeber to give thanks in all circumstances! :D

Thank God that my semester 2 was better compared to the 1st one. Thank God that I had a few friends that I'm close to. Thank God that I have a number of friends that I can trust in CCC. (:

It's the holidays now. Planning to get a job and also to recharge during the holidays. (: Done with Project UP audition last Saturday. I think I did okay. Not my best but.. I'll improve based on the comments given. (: Signed up for popping course that's going to start on 9th march. EXCITED! :D

Saw on facebook that they are setting up Alpha Academy in SG. Very tempted to join. Not to debut as an artist but a dancer will do (: I think I can dance better than I sing. (: Hahaha. >.< 想太多

That's it for now! 여러분 안녕히가세요!

Super Show 3

2011-01-31T13:44:00.002+08:00

Attended Super Show 3 yesterday at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. I seriously cannot describe how great it was. 3 hours of non-stop SJing was awesome. I love the boys' energy and their interaction with fans even though they just had another concer they day before and I know they're tired but, they still gave it their 100%! (:

The concert started at 1610. They sangs all their hit songs like Sorry Sorry, No Other, Don't Don, Bonamana, Twins (Knock Out), Wonder Boy, Dancing Out etc etc. Their solo performances was really great too! Listening to KRY sing live 让我有想嫁给他们的冲动. How can their vocals be so good? Ryeowook's One Fine Spring Day, Kyuhyun's 新不了情, Yesung's It has to be you. OMG. *fangirl moment* Everyone of them is so good looking in person. Henry's damn cute! Zhoumi's eyes are damn pretty and his face is so skinny! D: -自卑-

I was really high. I screamed my lungs out and my throat still hurts until now. ): My voice is abit weird now. ): I almost died during Sungmin's solo. He was damn sexy and his interaction with the dancers made me D: 我的老公! ): I cried during Kangin's segment. I miss him so much! Come back soon Kangin oppa! Lady Heehee was super pretty! :D Eunhyuk, Donghae and Shindong as beyonce! xD Super funny omg! I remember them torturing the dancer! xD

Fans went crazy when the boys walked around the stage. They ran from the back to the front man. Thank God my seat had a really good view of the whole stage! (: I wasn't really near but I could see all their faces really clearly! I was quite sad cause Kyuhyun and Ryeowook hardly came to my side of the stage! ): WAE~ But I had a good view of Sungmin~ :D He was really damn good looking lah! Ryeowook looked as cute as ever and Kyuhyun.. Evil maknae!

The boys ended off with wonder boys and thanked every one of us for going to support them. Siwon mentioned that they are preparing for their 5jib and zhoumi also said that SJM will be back with their new album soon~ :D Looking forward to it :D

SS3 was a blast. I really enjoyed myself. I shouted all the fanchants that I knew and I had like don't know how many emotional changes man. From happy to mad to sad to happy and crazy.

Thank you Super Junior for letting us SG ELFs have such a wonderful 3 hours with you guys. We really enjoyed it and we hope to see you during SS4 again! :D

Leeteuk, Heechul, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon, Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Zhoumi, Henry. Thankyou for putting up such an awesome performance for us! :D

슈퍼주니어 사랑해요!

2011-01-13T20:59:00.002+08:00

2nd week into 2011. Idk what to expect from this year but I know I am going to take that extra step to realise my dream.

2010 has been really.. eventful I guess. O levels results was one of the most devastating moments in 2010. I was utterly disappointed in myself in getting that kind of results but I've gotten over it I guess (okay, not really..).

Republic Polytechnic. A new chapter of my life. It made me realise how much protection St Nicks gave us and it's really crazy out there. Semester one was a bitch. I was not a good start for me. I hate it when I get judged for no reason. Grow up,seriously. Semester two was better. Well, I kinda enjoy semester two though. Cause I have a bunch of close friends that I can talk and crap to. :D Thank God. (:

CJ Recital. Really, I thank laoshi for giving all of us a chance to perform on stage. I really enjoyed myself and through the experience I've come to know that I actually love the stage. (: I hope there'll be more opportunity of me being on stage soon. (: Well, the world is my stage. (:

And I've definitely took the effort to improve my dance skills by taking lessons in O School. (: Still having lesson there and I hope I can be even better. There's no limit to dance anyways.

I guess that pretty much sums up the more important/special things in 2010.

Despite being in a different environment, I'm really thankful that I still have that bunch of crazy SN mates that I hang around with. YP, TY, WL, SJ, HL, L, YY, S, Z etc. You guys are awesome. Really. IJ friends are friends for life and I agree to a full extent. Meetups are always awesome and we can always find random things to talk about. And we're still close! :D I love you guys.

And there are also my wonderful churchmates. They never fail to make my weekends exciting and filled with laughter. Spent the last 2 weeks of 2010 and my hols with them was really enjoyable.

2011. Signed up for Chingay since they need 2,000 dancers so, why not? It's another experience for me. (: Also for CJ's Project U.P 3. Auditioning to get into the crew. Hopefully I do. And I need to start preparing soooonn! O:

Ending my year 1 in a month's time. That's fast actually.. Hmm..

2011, 放马过来吧！

2010-12-29T03:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder what if I'm famous like my favourite Kpop artists.

I like being on stage. I like being a performer. Sometimes I'm really envious of people who are able to perform on stage in front of a huge number of audiences, even backup dancers for artist.

Sometimes I really feel like giving up but there'll be one or two people that will keep me going. I want to live my dream. To be an outstanding performer. I just want to be able to dance until the day that I cannot dance anymore.

Many might think that I'm a kpop fan because of how the idols look and their talent but the other reason is because of their story before debut. They've been through so many hardships before being able to debut as artist. All the long hours of trainings and many things that they have to give up to be what they are today. They inspire me. So don't judge me for following kpop.

Dreams are simply reality waiting to happen. This sentence, I'll remeber forever. I really want to thank the person that posted this line on Facebook. Because of this, I'm taking that extra mile to realising my dream. (: Thankyou. (:

With God, everything is possible.
I'll hand everything to Him and let Him take charge. For the time being, I need to brush up on my dancing. FIGHTING!

CJ Recital 2010

2010-12-09T10:46:00.002+08:00

CJ concert was a blast! Really enjoyed myself.

Reached SP early in the morning for stage run and going through the finale item. I was quite sad in the morning cause I wasn't able to get the SS3 ticket for the first day and it was sold out in 15 mins. ):

Lucifer was much of a problem cause there were a lot of people performing it and the blocking was just.. messy :/ We had quite a lot of rehearsal for Lucifer and the stage run was still rather messy but thankfully it turned out alright during the performance itself.
We had a very rushed final full dress rehearsal just before the concert. After that was dinner and everyone was chionging their makeup and hair. LOL. Oh! Camwhoring sessions in the waiting room too.

I think the concert started late or something but everyone was damn high when the concert started. My first item was Bonamana and I was damn nervous cause I was in the first row for like 3/4 of the song which was scary! Really appriciated the cheering for the other performers before we went up to perform. Everyone was so nervous backstage. Going through the steps again and again. I prayed before performing. And it sure did calm me down. The power of prayer. (Y) I guess I did alright. I gave in my 200% into the performace although I think that people cannot see my face half the time cause my hair was covering it ><

Went down and changed into my Lucifer outfit. Everyone was damn high in the waiting room. They played any random song and everyone started to dance to it. :D Like awesome or what. Since Lucifer was one of the last item we had to wait for quite sometime so we ended up playing weird games to kill time.

It was finally our turn to perform and I wasn't as nervous compare to before. I just wanted to enjoy myself on stage, just like what the Korean artise do on stage. I guess everyone was looking forward to Lucifer stage. Hahah. It's awesome lah please. (Y)

Finale stage was okay. Curtain call and we danced to V.I.U by Beast. (:

Really thank you to all the audiences that gave us the loudest appluase and cheering. I guess it really kept us going. (Y)

I really want to thank all my friends that came down to support me. Really paiseh cause the concert ended later than expected and you guys have to reach home rather late. Also to those that messaged me to encourage and support me, I really needed those! <3

Special thanks to JOANNE TAN TING YUAN! Thank you for screaming my name so loudly before Lucifer performace!

I really felt like a star. And all those flowers that you guys gave me, they were really pretty <3

KAMSAHAMNIDA! Saranghaeyo!! <3

2010-12-09T10:29:00.002+08:00

It's Decemeber already. Christmas is coming soon. I don't really have the Christmas mood this year cause I'm still having school and I only have 2 weeks of holidays for Christmas this year. ):
I hope this year's Christmas would be good. That's like the only thing that I look forward to every year.

This year is passing way to fast. I feel like I just stepped into my new class last week and half the semeter passed already. Nonsense. After such a long time, I still miss the times that I had in SN. I guess Mrs Goh was right to say that SN protected all of us very well. It's like hell here. I never knew class politics were so ~!@#$%^&*()_+. But I'm still glad that I have a bunch of friends that will always be there for me no matter what.

I'm looking forward to weekends every single day. I love the company of my churchmates. They just make my day a whole lot better. The best thing is that they'll never forsake me just like how God never leave my hanging there. :D

Dance has been pretty much my main focus this year. I'm really inspired by many people out there to follow my dreams and my dream can true. Even though I wasn't a solo concert, I still felt happy being able to perform infront of so many people during the CJ recital. Thankyou to all those that came down to support me <3 I love you guys a lot. I should dedicate a post on the concert later. Since I'm so bored and stuff.

My blog is finally alive! After don't know how many thousand years. :D

2010-12-07T12:11:00.002+08:00

I like JYP Nation's digital single, This Christmas.

I want to fall in love this Christmas. (:

2010-12-01T11:52:00.001+08:00

Dancing is my life. I don't want to stop dancing just because I don't have the money.

No one's ever going to stop me from dancing.

NO ONE.

2010-11-16T22:20:00.002+08:00

Busy days ahead! 3 hours of rehearsal tomorrow.

Saturday's going to be so busy!! I need to go down to Cine to cover some event for my graded assignment for UT2 and I need to rush down to SP for the concert and all. I really don't feel like going for the event but bo bian leh. ):

Looking forward to the concert! Saw all the items and it seems awesome!

Support the CJ Crew tomorrow on OMG Finals! :D

2010-11-02T10:14:00.002+08:00

CELINE JESSANDRA SCHOOL OF PERFORMING ARTS 4TH ANNIVERSARY CONCERT.

Date: 20th Nov 2010
Venue: Singapore Polytechnic
Time: 7:30pm

There'll be performances put up by cj students, cj crew (as seen on OMG) and cj artise. We'll be performing to the lastest kpop songs, jpop, cpop and english songs as well. (:

Tickets are on sale now at $16 each.

If you're a big fan of kpop be sure to come down to watch our recital. Even though it's not the original artise performing, I assure you that it's going to be as great as their performance cause everyone has put in their effort for this conert!

It's going to be another awesome night of kpop!

Come support me okay! Kamsahamnida~!! ^^

Korean Pop Night Concert 2010

2010-11-02T09:43:00.002+08:00

Hello dead blog. I shall attempt to revive you even though I doubt anyone reads it anymore. Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr's like taking over blogs now a days. Hmm...

Sem 2 started 3 weeks ago. The only awesome thing is that i went for KOREAN POP NIGHT CONCERT 2010 on 23rd Oct! It was just plan A.W.E.S.O.M.E. 7 bands in 2.5 hours is just not enough for me. Especially the last 3 groups.

The concert started of with FT Island. I really love their live performances! Hongki is damn handsome please and the drummer! Super pro! They sang 4 songs but I only knew I hope and Love Love Love. I knew the fanchants too okay! The next 3 groups were the rookie groups, The Boss, ZE:A and Infinite. I'm not really familiar with them but I know some of their songs! I really envy how kpop artise can have such strong stage presences and confidence. I want to be like them when I perform too! Tingyuan found new boy groups to fall in love with after their performances! Haha!

I swear the crowd went mad for the last 3 performances. Everyone stood on their chairs! C'mon. We bought seated tickets for a reason and if you want to stand, just go for the mosh pit! I dobt anyone really bothers since everyone was so high seeing their favourite bands perform!

SHINee was next. I went crazy and I was literally shaking when i saw them. I couldn't even take pictures of them properly. They sang their popular hit songs, Replay, Ring Ding Dong, Lucifer and Hello which made the crowd go crazy. I was screaming their fanchants like crazy and observing how they protrayed themselves on stage because I'm doing Lucifer for CJ Concert. It was a pity that Jonghyun was not able to perform with them because of his injuried ankle. D: My bias somemore!!

The band that got all the guys in the crowd crazy was up next. Yes, it's Girls' Generation (SNSD). They were the reason why there was so many fanboys in the concert and seriously, it's the first time that I've seen so many fanboys! They performed Genie, Oh, Run Devil Run and ofcourse, Gee. The crowd seriously loved them to bits and did I mention that the fanchant was L.O.W?! Okay lah, there were girls chanting to but I could hear the guys too.

Finally, the last band was BIG BANG! They performing freaking 7 songs!! AND TOP WAS SO FREAKING HOT!!!!!!! I could see his face rather clearly even though I was quite far away from the stage. They were really enjoying themselves on stage! They were the only band that actually used the extention stage to the fullest. They even interacted with the fans in the mosh pit! I think TOP took one towel from a fan or something! O: I'm looking forward to their comeback! It's going to be really good.

The concert ended with all the bands coming front and thanking the audience which made everyone go crazy, again.

Tingyuan and I felt lost after the concert. Nothing much to look forward to anymore! LOL. There's SS3 next year and I'm super excited to see all of them! But I really wish it was 13 instead of 10! I might just cry during the Kangin part. :/

Anyways, 2 more weeks to CJ Recital! I'm super excited and it's time for me to look for recital clothes. Zzzzz.. An excuse to go shopping though :D

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I don't know the fan club colour for D-NA, ZE:A and Infinite so I just randomly added the colours.

2010-10-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

My 2 months long holidays are soon to be over. Sigh. I don't know whether to look forward to school or not. New semester with new classmates, new problems, new stress and all the what nots. ): Oh well.

Recital rehearsal just started yesteday. Super tiring man. 2 hours of Bonamana is enough to give me muscle aches. LOL. So much for dancing 3 times a week. HAHAH. (Y) Looking forward to CJ Recital (: Hope my friends are willling to come and see me perform. It's like a dream come true man. :D Someone once said dreams are simply reality waiting to happen. (:

My holidays have been really great. SN girls, dance and churchmates (: Waacking 2 started last friday (: LOL. My class only have like 6 people. I think the freestyle battle on the last lesson will last for like .. 30 mins?! Hahah (:

I shall enjoy my last 1 day of holiday. I need to get a new earpiece tomorrow. Zzzzz.. I feel like going shopping tomorrow. Last day of hols already.. :/

10/10/10. To love and be loved~

2010-08-30T18:24:00.003+08:00

It's the 3rd week of holidays. I haven't been doing much actually. UT's next week and I haven't finish my modules yet. I shall start on communication today.

Sign up for CJ's recital. I really hope I can perform. It's really like a dream come true to be able to dance for so many people (:

I'm loving my weekends more and more. I really love the times spent with my churchmates. Laughing at random things, making sense out of senseless things. I feel super happy whenever I'm with them. I don't think I was ever so happy when I'm in school.
I really hope next semester would be better. I don't want it to be like the first semester again. I just hate it when people judge you based on your looks. Oh well.

I haven't watch Step Up 3 and everyone tells me that it's awesome! ): I want to watch! I bet it will motivate me to be a better dancer. HAHA (: Street dance too! Anyone wants to date me? ^^

I need to start saving up now. Kpop concert in October and I need to save up for the tickets! I don't think I'm going to buy the VIP tickets. I'll save more money for Super Show 3 (:
SHINee! <3 I want to see Jonghyun! LOL. I shall start saving. (:

Annyeong^^~

2010-08-12T00:56:00.003+08:00

I dreamt that Super Junior performed as 13 during SS3! I really hope it'll come true~

I still 13elieve in the power of 13 :D

Anyways, Bonamana lessons are finishing. 1 more lesson this week and I'm done :D Thinking of joining Lucifer but I don't know which class to join! :/ Like all going to full like that leh. Hmm.. Maybe I'll go ask on Saturday.

Waacking lessons started last week. It was fun! Super enjoyable :D Looking forward to Friday's lesson :D

2 more days to holidays :D I'll miss my semester 1 classmates. So much drama going on everyday. Kekeke~ Don't think I'm going overseas this holidays cause the weather in HK is super hot ): Oh wells. Time to work! :D Hopefully I'll be able to work at starbucks with Yupin. (:

NEXT THURSDAY! BACK TO ST NICKS AND ORANGE BOWL! ;D Oh man, I missed it so much! Time for me to visit people and laugh at them! HAHAH (Y)

Hello you, how are you doing now?

Take care of yourself please.

IMY.

2010-07-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

2 more weeks of school! I'm so tired of it already lah! I think everyone's sian of school already cause no one really bothers contributing in class anymore. LOL.

Partialed today. I'm sick ): Flu and sore throat. The weather's crazy lah. How can anyone not fall sick! ): I still have dance tomorrow! YAY. :D
Dance keeps me alive. I guess it's the only thing that does. I've lost hope in so many things already. It's been 9 months since I graduated from SN (OMG?!) and I just can't seem to move on. I'm holding on to those memories so tightly cause I really don't want to forget them.

I miss my girls so badly. ): I miss recesses with time, bitching sessions, random jokes, messaging each other when we're in the same class, long walk around the level just to pon a few minutes of lesson to go toilet and all the stupid things we do in an ALL GIRLS SCHOOL. I was never that self concious in SN seriously. D: I can't go back and remember all those memories anymore. The building's gone. LIKE TOTALLY GONE! MY 10 YEARS OF MEMORIES GONE! No more NP room to slack in, no more QM room to check, no more half walled class rooms to climb over.. D:

FML. My UT2 grades are BULLSHIT. LIKE WTF?!?! WHY DROP SO MUCH?!?!?!?!!? I'm going to mug like sia during the YOG hols man. I better get my 'A's back to pull up my grades!

I fucking want to be in a relationship.

Hello YOU.
Will you ever understand how I feel about you?

2010-06-30T09:39:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I would wonder what my life would be like if I'm not in RP.
Would I be much happier?
Would I enjoy the course that I wanted more compare to this?
I'm doubtful that I'm going to achieve my dream of being a radio deejay or anyone in the media industry.
I don't know would I be able to enjoy what I'm doing now in RP. It's still a communication course but I have doubts about myself.
My english standard is not there and my course is mainly in english. I keep thinking to myself why didn't I study harder and make into Chinese Media and Communication in NP? I might be happier in that course and in that school.

I'm really inspired by some people, Like how they've worked towards their goals and finally being able to achieve what they really want to do in life. M is a very goodd example. It's really cool how he can do what he likes at such a young age. Hosting, radio deejay and all.

Will I, also be able to achieve what I really want to do?
My dreams seem so far away ...

2010-06-21T21:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM RYEOWOOK :D

My top bias in Super Junior (: I'm totally in love with his image for 4jib (:
I was so happy to see him in person during the showcase! I almost went crazy! He's so cute! <3
Happy 23rd Birthday oppa!

I wanted to post in korean but cannot copy and paste. ):

2010-06-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

The dream felt so real.
You held on to me so tightly as if you really didn't want to lose me.
'Sorry, but I really love you'.
I was so happy to hear that but sadly, it was just a dream.

Never felt so loved by someone before.
The hug was so tight that it I could really feel it and it was as if you really didn't want me to go.

In reality,
You don't even know how much I love you.
You don't even know how happy I am to see you.
You don't even know how much I miss you.
Do you even feel my presence around you?

Walking to school this more was really -.-
I don't know why but there were so many couples this morning and i felt so :/
Yes, I thought about you.
I miss you badly.

It's going to be Friday again and I'm looking forward to the weekends. Especially Saturday. I can finally dance again. Bonamana :D

idkwbijwthabfb. ):

2010-06-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR SHOWCASE WAS GREAT!

Even though there were like a lot of cameras but I still saw them! They look damn good in real life lah! OMG PLEASE! RYEOWOOK'S LIKE DAMN FREAKING CUTE & HOT! I almost died seeing him! <3 If only Kyuhyun came! I realise I don't have much pictures of Sungmin too ):
I thought that the people show at least put down their cameras cause it was quite difficult to see them dancing and all.
Maybe I should have just stood at the back, i bet the view's better luh!
All I know is that I kept screaming when Ryeowook and Sungmin sang! They had a birthday celebration for Ryeowook too! :D The cake was so pretty lah! With piano on top somemoree! O:

They sang a total of 5 songs. Bonamana, It has to be you by Yesung, Rokuko, Pajamas Party and not to forget, Sorry Sorry. <3 It's like a dream come true to see them performing live! Photos I took weren't really clear cause my phone's camera quite cui. ): But there were a few shots that were quite clear. (:

Really hope that they'll comeback for SS3 in Singapore! :D But I swear I won't be buying tickets for mosh pit cause later cannot see again! Hahaha! :D

It's like a dream come true to see them here in Singapore man! :D
Hope they'll have a good rest! Super Junior Hwaiting!

2010-06-06T01:35:00.003+08:00

I'm going to go crazy sooon. I'm seeing Super Junior in less than 24 hours! :D I hope the person don't scam me and my friend cause we really want to go see Super Junior!

First time getting to see them! OMO! I'm super EGGcited :D

First week of holidays are ending just like that. I didn't really do much besides going out with my family and all. Bought quite some stuffs and I feel quite bad cause they sum to to quite a lot of money): I should stop going out so I won't be able to spend so much money.

Planning to get highlights in my hair by extensions. Don't know if I should do it. :/ The ones at far east plaza are $1 per strain and the one at chinatown is like $0.50 or something. Hmm.. See how.

Feels like forever since I last talked to you
我可以继续的看着你吗？
请你继续的让我守护着你 ...

2010-05-29T01:07:00.004+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

Like finally! I totally wanted to faint/die of happiness when I first read the new on the fansite.
The sad thing is that not all 13 are coming ): Hangeng's contract problem, Kibum's busy with his acting career, Kangin is preparing for his enlistment and for some reason KYUHYUN'S NOT COMING ): Wahlau ): Kyuhyun leh! ): Only the other 9 are coming ):
BUT STILL, I'M FREAKING EXCITED :D

I'm planning to go to the airport to see them since I won't be able to go and see their showcase cause it's enclosed and we're required to buy Samsung Galaxy in order to get the tickets ):
Can you imagine how expensive it's going to be. I guess there'll still be people buying. I WANT SUPERSHOW IN SINGAPORE!

Like I've said before, if Super Junior comes to Singapore I'll fly to see them AND YES, I AM GOING TO DO THAT! (:

Anyone interested to go to the airport must tell me okay! Go together :D
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Term break's here. Time flies and it's been almost 2 months since I'm in RP. I'm getting use to it there and the system. I'm glad that I'm starting to open up a little bit more during class (:
Didn't get into hip hop IG ): Nevermind, I'll try again next year (: I'll never let my passion for dance die down. If only I can keep my passion for serving Him like that too. That's something I'll have to work towards to (:

Canoeing lacks girls .. Should I join?
Decided to take dancing lessons from O school. Anyone interested to take with me? Doing popping first though (:

2010-05-22T21:34:00.002+08:00

Praise and worship was okay just now. I felt like I was talking crap ):
My sharing was okay lah. I just anyhow bomb ): Zzzz.. Very stressful leh :/

My hip hop result's are not out yet! Super scary lah. I really hope I get in! It's something that I really want to do. I don't care what people think of me but I find passion in dancing and i feel really great when I dance. I can totally forget about all the troubles that are bothering me. :D
Just like during the boot camp. Even though everyone of us was having muscle aches but when we danced, we didn't feel any pain at all.
I miss my ALALALA crew! ): i never met anyone that can clique so well in just 2 days.

1 more week to school holidays. 1 more term to go.
and I'm out of the class.
I just don't like it when people judge me. It's not like you don't have flaws either right?

Hello you, I miss you.

2010-05-16T21:54:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Hip Hop Boot Camp! :D
Hahah! It was super fun man! My group's called the Alala crew :D Dope not?

It's really cool that we bond faster compared to orentation. I guess dance just brings us together :D I've learnt quite alot during these 2 days. The best was bboy, something that I've never really tried. It's kinda though cause I can't really support myself and i can't squat properly. I'll improve over time! :D
I really like my group memebers (: I guess we all worked out really well :D The planning of the cheography and all.
Speaking of the cheography, I think my group did a super wonderful job! Kudos to the guys, Joshua, Fransis and Terrence for cheographing the bboy part and make amenments to it cause I couldn't really do it. Also not to forget my girls, Lubna, Megan and Jerlin for helping out with the cheography! ALALALALA~ :D
My group got second for the dance show case! :D Hahaha!
Aryo was a 'spy' from SGC lah! OMG! His acting was so freaking good! D: I felt so bad somemore when I pointed out that he was the one that was always in his own world! D: Aryo not his real name somemore! -.-
Not the forget, the most credit goes to Natalie and Zhongwen! :D They're like the best!

I'm aching all over but I think it's really worth it! I had so much fun in just 2 days and I haven't enjoyed dancing like this for quite sometime already! (Y)

Really hope I'll be able to get in to the IG! (:

The song's still stuck in my head! O:

2010-05-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

Sec 4 squad'09

Sec 4 Truth'09

I really miss the times spent together.

I really don't like the situation I'm in now. Why is it that people don't like me when they don't even get to know me yet?

I don't like the fact that people start to judge me when they don't know me yet.

No one else can judge me except for God.

I'm keeping quiet doesn't mean that I don't know anything at all.

Everyone seemed to have moved on except for me.

I really wish I can love my class as much as I love St Nicks.

Super Junior

2010-05-04T19:50:00.002+08:00

I'm going to miss the times when Super Junior perform as 13 members on stage! ):
They're having their comeback on the 13th as 10 members only. Kibum is going to focus on he's acting, Hangeng is still having his law suit and Kangin is going serving the army! D: OMG! ):
WHAT IS THIS MAN! ): I want all 13 members back! D:
But I'll still support them anyways~
4JIB DAEBAK~ :D Waiting for their comeback! (:

Hello you.
How have you been? I miss you so much ):
There's still so long till I see you again.
Take care of yourself please.
I need you really badly ):

2010-04-29T22:25:00.002+08:00

School.
I just don't seem to be able to fit in to my class :/ How? The people are okay but I just don't know how to communicate with them. The problem lies with me lah. ):

Had hip hop audition on Tuesday. Super scary but thank God I did it well. I think I gave it my best shot so, hopefully I'll get in :D I bet I anyhow danced the freestyle part. I totally anyhow mix all the techniques together and did some weird cheoro of mine! -.-
Results coming out on Monday! OMG. I'll die of anticipation man!

Having dragon boat training on saturday at seletar reservoir. If I don't get in to hip hop, I'll be joinging DB. I'll be super tanned man! :D

I'M SUPER HAPPY CAUSE I'VE BEEN DOING QUIET TIME EVERYDAY FOR THE PAST WEEK ;D I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF ;D

3rd week of school and I think it's pretty much alright. I'm getting really tired already ):
I need strength.
I need you.
I hope you're doing fine..

2010-04-17T23:01:00.003+08:00

School has offically started for me. I'm okay with it but not really liking it as of yet. Maybe I'm just not used to it. It's quite retarded that I have a fixed timetable every single day.
CCC people are wayyy nicer than the people in my class. Well, they're more friendly and
sociable. But okay lah. My classmates are not that bad.

I want semester 1 to pass quickly so i can be back with the CCC people! Hahaha.

I think it'll talk me a long time to get use to the new environment. I'm starting to speak like them which is a bad thing. I NEED TO SPEAK PROPER ENGLISH. Gosh.
I found someone that i can spea chinese to in school but she's not in the same class as me. Different block somemore. I'm at E3 she's at E2!

I feel super hardworking cause I always complete my RJ in school before I go home! :D But by the time I reach home it's super late already~ Zzzz. Super scared to be late for school now. My GPA will be deducted by 0.5 if I'm late! D:

Looking forward to the weekends cause I can sleep in! :D SLA fiesta next week. I don't know what to join lah! Should I just stick to Hip Hop? :/

I miss SN even more when school started..

2010-04-13T22:00:00.003+08:00

It's the 2nd day of orientation already. Hahaha. The people in my course is not bad though (: Quite friendly. Just that I need time to adjust to the environment and the RP culture. Made new friends too :D

1st day of orientation was mostly playing games. 2nd day we had mass dance, team republic echo etc. Got to know my classroom today but I can't find anyone in E37N!! ): Since CCC is so small, there's just going to be 1 CCC person in each class (I think). That means I need to make new friends again!! O: Going to be in our classes tomorrow. I'm quite excited to know people from other schools. (:

Collected my laptop from school yesterday. It came with a super cool wireless mouse (: I guess I need to buck up on my english standards since my course is mainly in english. \:

Last week was great. (: Had a great time catching up with my secondary school friends! Sunshine and Wanlin treated me to lunch on my birthday! :D Wet back to SN on friday to collect my SGC and eat orange bowl (: Watched Diary of a Whimpy kid with them too :D

I'm super tired man! Shall go to sleep soon. I need to reach school at 830 tomorrow! Zzzz. Haven't been waking up at 630 for 5 months already! D: Orientation ends at 2200 tomorrow!! OMG LAH!

2010-04-08T00:12:00.004+08:00

It's 8th April so ..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIM JONGHYUN :D
생일 축하합니다 김종현!
Isn't he just soooo sexy? :D

I feel so happy to have the same birthday as him xD
생일 축하합니다 to me :D

Had dinner with Weishi Danah and Weien just now at Just Acia. (:
Thanks for the cake and advanced birthday celebration! :D
Love you guys loads (:

2010-03-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

Super Junior's Supershow II is damn nice lah! It's suppose to be an asia tour.
They went to China, Japan, Taiwan, Thailand, Malaysia, Hongkong, South Korea(duh) and they're going to the Philippines on 10 April!

WHY CAN'T THEY COME TO SINGAPORE?! THEY'VE BEEN TO ALMOST EVERY COUNTRY IN ASIA!~ D:

I'm happy that they're in the midst preparing their 4 jib! (:
4 jib daebang (:

Okay. This is a super random post about SJ~
But I like it so, TOO BAD. >:D

2010-03-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

School's starting in 3 weeks! And the good news is? SHIJIE'S IN THE SAME COURSE AS ME! -insert super huge smily face- Yes lah! RP damn cool luh! Called her and told her she's accepted into my course :D

I'm super bored these few days. Went swimming on Monday and today with Weishi. And the 2 of us are super burnt i guess~ xD I don't think I'm going to go swimming for a few days. I need my skin to heal~
Recoloured my hair. Haha. I like the colour now. More visible. (:

I'm super happy! Going to meet sunshine tomorrow :D Haven't seen her since I don't know when! Gonna have dinner than go to her school for concert! NYJC!

Worship prac was great today (; Super funny!
National anthem! No rock! xD

Zzzz. My sunburn is killing me! ): Super pain!

TINGYUAN! YUPIN! SHIJIE! BROTHER! And all the people going poly! We need to meet up soon before school starts!!!!

idkiyekbifrgwyaa (:

2010-03-20T01:42:00.003+08:00

Feel like putting on blonde extensions as highlights on my hair.. But not the whole head though. Maybe just the right side. You know, like the ones they have in Hi My Sweetheart ( hai pai tian xin).

Watched Alice in Wonderland with Weishi today (: Not bad but it ruins my image of Johnny Dep! O:

Omg luh! SUPER JUNIOR is holding their concert today at Malaysia and yet I won't be going!! D: It's just SO FREAKING CLOSE TO SINGAPORE! Can't they just pop by or something?! ): This sucks man. SHINee came TWICE and I didn't go and see them! D: Really hope they'll have their concert in Singapore or something~

I'm looking forward to tomorrow (:
Di Xiong Hui (: and I'm having dance before that. 4 more lessons to go. There's so many MTV dances that I want to learn but I don't have enough moolahh!
Berrylite's opening at Northpoint. I feel like going there and work part time. It's near my school plus I have direct bus home from there (:
Anyone wants to hire me? I can only work part time though.. ):
School fees are really high man ): Zzz.. I feel so bad cause I'm like burning a hole in my parent's pocket ):

imy.
irliwyttmlw
irwttcstf.

2010-03-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

Last day of work at HLX yesterday ):

It's only been 2 months plus but I'll really miss all the people there! All the fun times we had. I'd especially miss the time standing host with Qianyun and how we always comment on our eyecandy~ (:
We down super earlyyesterday so that i can spend more time there. Dinner was great cause we had nice food (: I feels really weird just to stand outside the shop and see them move everything out. I feels just like yesterday that i started working there..
Very sad cause i never see my eyecandy on my last day!! ): Didn't get the chance to see him on Saturday cause it was so freaking busy. LOL. I bet the customers were super pissed off cause everything was OOS!
I'd be really nice to go down sometime again to see how the shop's going to be like and maybe see my eyecandy~ xD
It has really been a great experience working there and I'd always remember the friends that I've made there. Lao ba's the best! Where can you find such a cute and nice chef like him? (:

Got my enrolment package sometime last week and I guess there's going to be alot of things to do. I'm excited and nervous at the same time about my new school. (: I hope the people there are really nice. (:

My presence was never important to them anyways.
They only fancy those whom are passionate and are willing to commit.
No one freaking bothers.
Maybe it's time they know why people are leaving one by one.
It's funny how much i wanted to be with them everyweek and now, i just feel like running away.

FML.
I feel damn sad now.
I used to look forward to work cause of the people there and because of my eyecandy.
I'm going to rot at home until my freaking school starts! WTF?!

Fucking irritated.
Why does it feels that I'm always the one at fault.
Do you all even fucking care why I am acting this way (No, I'm not trying to seek attention)?
No.

Sorry for the use of vulgarities. Don't read if you don't like it.
TYVM.

2010-02-04T02:18:00.002+08:00

I hate how we're all on our seperate ways.
I hate that fact that we won't be as close to each other anymore.
I hate the fct that we won't be seeing each other everyday anymore.
Seriously why can't there be a SNJC or a SN Poly?

Someday, i really feel like walking back to SN and let all the memories flow back.
SNNP, 4Truth, O levels, Flag raising, QM room, QM shed, Family Lounge everything that filled my very wonderful 2009. (WTF, i feel like crying now ): )
I really miss the AMK site. I hope that it's not all gone!
I don't know what's going through my mind now a days. I just keep thinking about SN and everything that happened in 2009.

I just feel like waking up at 630 in the morning and walk the same path as i always do to school for 10 years again. I don't know.

I just feel lost without St Nicks.
D:

My mind's having a traffic jam! *&^%$#@~!?!

2010-02-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHO KYUHYUN!! ;D

I love his voice TTM please!

Also not to forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG JIA! :D

Hope you liked the present :D

It's feb already and i seriously hate adult fare! ):

I trip to and fro work is like $3++?! Bus concession still must apply one! So kuku luh please! ):

Everyone's busy with JC now! ):

POLY PEOPLE! I WANT GO OVERSEAS!!

2010-01-31T01:13:00.002+08:00

Feels so weird that eveyone's starting school and i'm still here working my ass off. I don't know. I somehoe wants school to start faster. I really hope i can get used to the culture there.

I want to go overseas. YP says make the few poly people can go together (:

I don't know. There's so many thoughts going through my mind at a time. Traffic jam man.
I really miss SN alot.
Cause now, i feel weird in church don't ask me why, i dont know why either. I just feel that my presence is not really important.
Sometimes at work i feel that i can't really communicate with some of the people there. Esp on weekdays when i people i can talk too isn't around and stuff like that.. :/

I miss my recess clique.
I miss SNNP.
I miss my squadmates.
I miss my juniors (green badges).
I don't know. I don't think i can find anywhere like SN aymore.
If people ask me where do i find it best, my answer would obviously be SN (:

I don't know man. I just need someone whom I can really talk to. Like pour out everything to him/her.

Work's great today cause there was a lot of customers :D
Eyecandy was at work too (:
Homed with QianYun today (: Hahaha. She's like damn funny! (:

My body's aching from dance. Twice a week manxzxz! From next month on it'll be like 3 times a week! O:

SHINee fan sign tomorrow and i cannot go D:
WAH LAU. I REALLY WANT TO SEE THEM LEHHH! D; D;
I was thinking of going to send them off at the airport on tuesday.. Hmmm

On a brighter note, pay day tomorrow :D

IMY, INY, IWTSYN! );
Hopefully i can see you tomorrow..
If i go for serivce/lesson..

2010-01-29T02:49:00.002+08:00

Posting results came out and i got into Republic Poly.
Sian. Chinese Media & Communication's COP is like 12 and my score is like 19 -.- Who ask me never study hard enough.
My course is not bad lah actually, Communication and Information Design.
I shall just move on and not think about my CMC any more ):
And i shall bid goodbye to Ngee Ann Poly D: D:

Whatever man. I'm going to top the course, be a nerd in poly. :D

Work's alright, eyecandy makes it more enjoyable :D
Haaha. Getting my pay soon. I'm short of cash already. Stupid, I'm freaking using adult fare now luh! D:

I want to colour my hair a few shades lighter! Anyone want to come with me?

2010-01-15T00:44:00.003+08:00

OMG! ):

SUPER JUNIOR'S GOING TO MALAYSIA FOR SUPER SHOW 2!! ):
I WANT TO GO! 20 MARCH 7PM!!

Dang it. Can't they just come to Singapore? ): It's just next to Malaysia! ):

-random-

Got back results, cried like mad.
Load and loads of thanks to Haowen, Jiajia and Peishan on results day (:
Thanks for being there when i needed the most (:
LOVE YOU GUYD LOADS <3

I'll leave eveything in God's hand cause I know everything's going to be alright (:

2010-01-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

I remember how much we always wanted to get out of NP when we were still partof the unit but now, we're constantly going back to help them.
I don't know but I feel very at home in SNNPCC.

Went back to help them for campfire today. Tied structure and the torch. The smell of kerosene and manilla rope is back on my hand. I felt very accomplished when i saw the campfire. No fire ball this year but the canal was good too (:

There wasn't enough sand so the fire on the tourch was still burning for quite sometime so we had to borrow water from the sec1s. HAHAHA!

Really enjoyed myself today (: My blisters are damn pain! );
Going back to help them tomorrow. (: See, this is how important NP is to us (:

MONDAYYYYYY!!! D;

2010-01-06T15:16:00.002+08:00

I'm currently back in SN (:
The library computers are super fast now lah! :D Hahaha.

Went to explore the school. Not bad but very confusing. NP room's very very small! It still smells like NP room anyways. Orange bowl and chicken patty egg cheese (:
All time favourite (:

Results coming out on Monday. I'm super worried!! ):
I really hope I do well! D: I don't think I can sleep on Sunday night. NGEE ANN POLY!! -prays hard-

Helping out with NP stuffs later and I'm going to go work after that.
Hahaha. The stupid burnt blop on my hand is freaking disgusting. URGH. >;(

2010-01-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SUNGMIN! <3>

One of the cuties in Super Junior and one of my favourite too (:

I'm only posting in pink cause it's his favourite colour.

2009-12-29T22:37:00.004+08:00

The year's ending soon! Hahaha.

I guess this year's indeed very eventful. I'm quite sad that this year passed so quickly luh ):
Really thankful to all the wonderful people that made my year very wonderful (:

St Nicks is a place I'll never forget after spending 10 years there.
All the fun and laughter I had there.

4 Truth.
Even though we may not be the smartest or the most bonded class but I really enjoy my 2 years in the class (:
Especially my recess clique which I got closer to this year (: TingYuan, ShiJie, HuiLi, Joan, Shuxiang, Cheong, LeeShi and YuanYee :D
I'll never forget these wonderful people :D

SNNPCC.
4 long years. All the responsibilities, sai kang jobs, punishments and scoldings.
I guess I've grow alot through these 4 years. Come to think of it, I don't regret joining NP at all. NP trained me to be stronger. Even by doing all the proposals, I'm able to plan programmes properly, may it be church events or other events. (: AP'08. My very wonderful juniors (:

Squadmates.
Being together for 4 years. All the fun and laughter, scoldings, punishment and everything that we've went throught together. I'm very thankful for them. Even though we had misunderstandings here and there but without them, NP would really be different.
All the times we had to reflect for weird reasons, all the complaining which actually bonded us together even more.
My beloved partner, Zoe. Wanlin, Yupin, Lovin, Gloria etc etc. Thank you all very much (: Must not forget each other okay! (: Wanlin's fishfarm is always ther for us to have gatherings :D

Emotional year for me too. I cried alot during lesson time because of my results and during math extra lessons when i was pissed off with myself for not knowing how to do the math questions. I was more stressed out during the prelims period than the O levels period.
I broke down twice in chruch too. I cried during reflection day and all.
My tear glands seem to be super active this year. I've been crying alot.

I've offically ended my secondary school journey and I'm looking to my new journey in poly (:

Many others i want to thank too.

God and my parents for always supporting me and guiding me through difficult times
FWB for brightening up my life with their laughters and jokes
Chruchmates for their concern and prayers
(: for encouraging me during O levels.

Thankyou very much! (:

I feel like going back to school on 3rd Jan. Anyone? (:

2009-12-23T13:06:00.001+08:00

Random stuff that i saw on one of the cars when i was on my way to work yesterday

The Big Bang Theroy:

God spoke and BANG it happened.

LOL. Isnt it cool? xD

GEE GEE GEE GEE BABY BABY BABY ~

2009-12-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

The song is seriously stuck in my head after listening to it for super lot of times preparing for POP performance.
POP was alright. I enjoyed it cause I had really great company :D
I liked the Sec 3's dance! So nice and WJJ has hidden talent!
Holding site's quite -.- but THERE IS ORANGE BOWL :D YAY!! I'm so going back just for orange bowl and the bread stall!! :D

Christmas is coming which means I have a lot of performances! 2 down and 2 more to go!! O:
I guess we all did alright :D
I haven't started buying presents for people yet! Not even the cards! ): HOW HOW?! D: I have only .. 4 days?! Minus the times that I'm working and going for rehearsal! D:

Started working last week. Quite alright. I'll be better after a while i guess? (:

I want my results back! Although I'm quite afraid to face it but .. OH WELLS.
Hopefully it's below 15. I'll be very happy already (:
I'm getting bored of the holidays already. Everyday's just like a routine! D: I miss so many people from school! ):

imy):

2009-12-08T23:43:00.001+08:00

I need to go to school tomorrow to collect something and I have completely no idea how to get to the holding site.

Excellent! ^^

2009-12-06T22:47:00.002+08:00

Music Cafe's overrr.
I guess everyone pretty much enjoyed themselves :D Everyone did a great job after 1 week of intensive prac xD
My group's performance was :D (DUH) even though i screwed up like the first part of the first item :P The instrumental was good (: But i'll never want to listen to Canon for the time being. It's still stuck in my head! D:<
Yesterday was just :D :D :D :D

Ice Kimo after the retreat thingy.
Went home to change and went out to meet Wanlin, Lovin and Gloria at Bishan.
Trained down to Marina Square to meet up with the others. Watched New Moon. It was okay lah. I just like their eyes!! Like RED (BOOMZ) contact lens! I'll look like a freak in it anyways.
Show ended at like 3 am. Walked to padang to gather for the Standard Chartered Marathon.
We totally stoned until like morning cause we were stationed at the end point. Macs for breakfast an we started talking nonsense and playing weird games.

It was very boring at first cause no oner really wanted to talk the drinks cause the people in front gave them already. Our arms were aching for some reason and i had stupid headache ):
But after like 5/6 hours after flag off, only the full marathon runners were left running in and there were lesser people giving out water so the few of us had super loads of fun giving out the waters an we cleared cartons and cratons of water super quickly xD

Went off at 1 plus and i went home to sleep.
I'm still very tired despite sleeping for 4 hours just now! :/

ibvlbislyvm.
ifswnbatsyt..

2009-12-03T01:07:00.002+08:00

Life after Os is getting really boring and i still have a long long holiday to go!! :/ Atleast this week's packed which is a good thing :D

I seriously need to get a job of some sort. I can't be staying at home most of the time and STONE my life away right.

This is really weird but I'm already starting to miss life in St Nicks ?! I miss NP like crazy but I dont want to go back to face the CIs. In case they start another round of suaning which i think they will cause i dyed my hair. KNS :/ I miss the whole crazy bunch of people that i always hang around with in school! Life's like so boring without them. D:

This week's packed man.
Music Cafe and Christmas performance practices!
My stupid cough's still here! ):

Hello confidence, where are you?
I think you've been missing ever since i started practising for music cafe.
It's time for you to come back.
D:

HOW?! D:

2009-11-26T22:25:00.001+08:00

SORRY.
I really suck at being a friend.

2009-11-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

Many things happened for the past week.
I shall start from RED CAMP (:

Red Camp was a blast! Indeed a good way to relax after Os! Centurions are like the coolest people on Earth! Really enjoyed myself for the 2 days at camp with great company too! (:
Hop nite was damn good. Me and Shijie went high man!
Oh, did i mention i saw my eyecandy ?!?! :D Ngee Ann's damn fun lah! We're so going back on open house (:

Next big event was the graduation night.
22/11/2009 marks the last day of my St Nicks journey. ): 很不舍得！
Well it's been 10 years and the school's going to be torn down too!
Everyone looks so different after makeup and everyone looks damn pretty lah! Graduation night wasn't an emotional one for me but i did enjoy myself with my great bunch of friends (:
For once you see everyone one dancing the family dance ( in heels) with pride, sing the school song and recite the students pledge loudly! :D
There's just so many things that I'll miss about St Nicks.

There's so many people i really want to thank indvidually. Maybe I'll do up a post next time on that (:

Post prom was fun! I looked like a lobster after drinking 1 and a half bottle of bacardi brezzer :/ but i wasn't drunk. Actually i was more awake then some of them O:
OH! The view from my hotel room is awesome! It overlooks the Singapore River, St Andrew Cathedrel, Victoria Concert Hall etc ! The night view was even nicer! (:
Loads of pictures on facebook (:
Prata for dinner the next morning thanks to some random TV channel we switched to in the morning. Hahah.

Didn't go for moving out cause i fell sick! ):
Oh man. I'll miss St Nicks! ):

I'M PROUD TO BE A TRUE BLUE ST NICKS GIRL! :D

爱我爱我圣尼格拉
爱我爱我圣尼格拉
爱我爱我圣尼格拉
爱我圣尼格拉 !!

2009-11-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

O levels are finally over.
I dont know but i don't think I've done my best.

Life's quite boring after O levels ends. Nothing much to do. Maybe I'll start doing quiet time regularly now since i have quite a lot of time to spare.
I liked the sermon today. :D

Next week's going to be really packed.
Prom shopping, ngee ann poly's red camp and grad night rehearsal (?!?!?!?!). Oh! I'm FINALLY taking off my braces on tuesday :D
I have quite a few events after Os though. I need to find a job. I mean working is better being compared to stoning at home half the time and time past faster that way. Got $$ too! :D Atleast i dont have to keep taking money from my parents.

虽然放下了一棵大石头但是我还有很多很多很多棵小石头放不下...
Maybe it's just me thinking too much about things.

The past few weeks are super :D
I feel like doing something damn retarded on the 24th.
But i don't know leh.. I can't possibily go alone?
:/

What's school going to be like without __ ?

2009-11-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

Half way through Os, actually it's going to finish soon.
I still think I'm super weird cause i still can watch TV and use computer xD

I'd be so happy after the hectic papers on friday! :D

2009-10-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

3 MORE DAYS.

3 MORE WEEK! :D

22/11! :D

Thank you very much, (:

2009-10-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

After spending 10 years in St Nicks, it's the last day school.
Well, last day of offical lessons actually.

I feel very blessed to be able to study in the school for such a long time.
I'll miss the old school campus. I'm going to go crazy and start taking pictures of the school one day. It's going to be torn down D:

Reflection day was okay.
Had a lot of feelings inside of me. It's really amazing to know how God works in each and everyone'slives differently. Especially though the sharings.
Ofcourse, the standard crying sessions -.-
I think i cried super hard for this year's reflection day compared to the few years back. Maybe cause it's the last year with everyone.

Free ice-cream for sec4s from Mrs Ctan and Mrs Goh! :D
The gifts in the love packs are super nice!! OMG! I got 'credit card' ! xD

2 more weeks!
HWAITING HWAITING! :D

I'M PROUD TO BE A ST NICKS GIRL :D

2009-10-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

22 more days.

and soon, it'll be the time when we need to leave St Nicks.
I'm going to miss so many people.

4 Truth, Sec 4 squad, Juniors etc.

Especially someone. :/

I need to believe in myself more.
I need to work toward my target.
I've meet one of their criteria already. All i need now is to mug really hard and hopefully get single digit for my L1R5/L1R4.

Sad to say, I miss NP alot ):
Drills , PT, proposals, punishments, QM room.
I need to go visit them someday before O levels.

Shit.
Why are all my posts getting so emo?

Oh, my prom dress' going to be red.
BOOMS. xD

2009-10-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

Damn screwed ):
My prelims result are like ______.

Ok lah. Got improvement xD
I hope i'll continue to improve :D

2009-09-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

30 DAYS LEFT.

That's all i have left.
The sad things is that i don't have enough faith in myself.
I would really want to cry tears of joy when i get my results next year.

This is the last lap of the race.
Time to put in all the effort and time that i have.

JIAYOUS SEC4s!
Let's do St Nicks proud again! (:
We can do it!

But can I ?

2009-09-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

What's with the Korean boybands now man.

First was DBSK's lawsuit, well 3 of them. Followed by 2PM's Jaeboem incident. Now's Super Junior's Kangin!! ):

His schedules are all temporary postponed! ):
I hope the results come out faster! He's innocent!! ):
HWAITING!

F(x)'s Amber is damn freaking HOT.
Yes, i know that she's a girl. :D

2009-09-18T21:16:00.004+08:00

PRELIMS ARE FINALLY OVER! (:

Well, atleast I can slack abit before mugging again.

When out for lunch with my parents today after geog paper! (:
Family bonding! xD Bought new sandals at like a super cheap price! Dad got like 40% discount off his shoes man (:

School resumes next friday for me! :D
Hahahah! I'm super happy noww! But i think prelims was quite screwed. Esp chemistry paper. D: I hope i do well for combine humanities and bio!!

Weekends are here again (:
i shall be excited :D

La Cha La Cha Ta Ta.

2009-09-14T19:52:00.002+08:00

Super Junior-M - Super Girl

This is what i call HOTT! :D
Personally, i think Ryeowook's super hot here! Hankyung's just damn cute! Kyuhyun's voice as as perfect as ever! :D
AHHHHH! I'm going nuts! :D

Chem was SCREWED.
Bio's my new boyfriend :D
Lalalalala (:

2009-09-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

CITY SLICKERS was fun! :D
I'm super tired now though. Town area seems so .. peaceful in the early morning! Everyone should seriously compare the early morning and afternoon time lah.
Was in charge of CARING (:
Quite power leh. I still dont get why the others completed so quickly. :/
It's a good way to end our one week holidays though (: TQ people should go to town more often!! :D

Much credits to my fellow Game Masters, Moyi and Beile :D
YAY! :D

I have SUPER DPER UGLY UNEVEN TAN on my arms >;(

On a happier note, SUPER JUNIOR-M's gonna have their new album soon (:
Their comeback teaser is super HOTT! ;D
Wheewheee (:

2009-09-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

Here to revive my dead blog.
My coputer's finally alive again! (: Hopefully it doesnt die, again.
Life' pretty much mundane. What can you expect much from a Sec 4 student's life besides studying? xD Well, looking on the bright side, it's all going to be over SOON. I have so much more things to look forward to! Chalets, party and ofcourse, PROM (: I'm taking off my braces too(FINALLY)! xD

Holidays are just fine. Monday was fun though.
I've gotten tanned just by walking in town for a few hours! O:

LOOKING FORWARD TO SATURDAY! I'm sure everyone does (:

Korean craze.
Almost all my songs are korean songs with the majority belonging to Super Junior ofcourse! :D
Mum allows me to take up classes too. Hmmmm ... :D :D

Well, thats about it for now!
STUDY HARD PEOPLE!!
:D

2009-08-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

Prelims tomorrow.
I feel damn screw cause i dont feel stress? :/

English Oral tomorrow too! I really want to do well!
My english is really weak! ): Sianxzxz.

I think my blog will be hiatus until O levels finish?
Well, maybe a few post during random times.

PE was super fun today! ;D
Hahahah! I suddenly feel weird without tests these few weeks.
I think i'm weird.
Sad to say, i actually miss NP. ):
Oh wells. MUGGGGGGGGG. :D

FIGHTING! :D

2009-08-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

Prelims next wednesday.
English Os oral next wednesday.

Sometimes i really wonder if i can really do it :/

1 subject down, 6 more to go.

Jiayou cheng mun, you can do it!
Jiayou.

I don't sound convincing at all.
I just think that there's something wrong with me.

ioicsye.
iwrhtsyjn.
rly.

2009-08-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

National Day celebration in school was cool! (:
SO UNFAIR! The uniform groups looked so much nicer in the white gloves lah! Not like our year. ): Oh well.
WE enjoyed ourselves pretty much! We decided to get enthu cause it was our last year celebrating it! (: Took many pictures with different people! (:
After school went for lunch and we watched UP! (;
The show's super nice! (: And its super entertaining to sit next to yuanyee during the movies! HAHAHA! (:
Stoned around meet weishi for dinner at night! (: Follwed her to do her manicure!! >;( Sianxzxz! I also want!

I washed my hair like 2 times after i got home to get rid of the stupid die on my hair. SOLID SIAL.

Today was okay. I went to collect my file! (:
IM SO HAPPY!! ;D I want their concert DVD!!
Okay. I shall study soon.

2009-08-01T16:58:00.001+08:00

I LOVE MY SEC 4 SQUAD! (:

Yesyes! It's finally over for us! (: All the 4 long years that we've gone through! (:
No one can understand what our squad really went through except for us!
From JTC to ATC to STC taking over and all the responsibilities that we need to take. Its tough but we've all pulled through!
I love yall to the max okay! (:
Yall never know how much you guys mean to me! :D Lets all work hard for Our Os yeah! (:
CELEBRATE AFTER O LEVELS!! ;D

Jiayou for all the Sec3s too! (:

xoxo,
Chengmun
Quater Mistress 2009

2009-07-26T22:29:00.001+08:00

The old me is coming back soon.

I hope I'm not proven wrong.

I'm always looking forward to saturdays and sundays because i can spend more quality time with God. Also, the company at church is great cause they seem to understand what I'm going through.
Lets just hope it stays this way forever aye?

There's just a barrier between us due to my unpleasant memories.
Im just not that close to them.

Friends are important.
So are my studies.

I'm just like that.
Can't blame me for being over sensitive right?
The truth is, i just can't find anyone that i can share all my worries to.
No one.

Face it. I'm like that.

2009-07-19T21:58:00.003+08:00

Its really funny how people changes.
Im totally speechless.
How can she actually say that of her?
Not like she dont know that _ has been such a nice friend to her.
I dont know what to say.

We're in a girls' school.
Its all about the bitching, backstabbing.
Everyone wears a mask. Its hard to find true friends.
And you've just ost one.

I guess, nothing would ever be the same anymore?
After all. You are the one who wrote all those harsh words to her.
Since you want it this way. I feel quite bad for you, for losing such a good friend like her.

Why is it that things like that have to happen every now and then.
Why?

2009-07-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

I wonder how long more can i go.
Im really tired.
Phsyically and mentally.

COUNTING DOWN TO DOOMSDAY: 101.

Oh yay. IM FREAKING GOING TO DIE.

2009-07-10T22:33:00.003+08:00

MY DEAREST YULIANT JOANNE IVAN RYO TAN TING YUAN!!

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY! <3

Hope you like the present and the letter. I know you totally love the picture compilation right? :D
The card also huh! Old fart! xD

Finally! 2nd week of school is over. I think i rock. Every friday after school i'll automatically shut off from all the studying and start again on Saturday! Hahah!

Im happy cause im starting to study now! (: Finally woken up after how many thousand days! (:

School was good today!
I actually finished my Bio worksheet lah! xD Damn guai please! (:

After school was.. urm interesting.
Follow Tingyuan around since she requested me to be her bodyguard against her juniors? LOL!
Her juniors are super nice lor! Plan such nice birthday celebartion for her. But it was quite retarded too! Hahaha! NaCl+ CO2 !
And hmm.. tingyuan's totally a womanizer man! xD

Okay. Maybe if im too bored I'll start studying tonight.
:D
I shall be attached to all my books! :D

2009-07-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

Ngee Ann was super fun today! (:
Eyecandy! xD His hair's super nice please! xD
Im super tired now! ): I dont think i can study anything. I studied a bit of SS and abit of Chem. WDH lah! I thought I dont need to take the stupid test anymore! ):<

And y'know what..

I . HAVE . 4 . FREAKING . TESTS . TOMORROW !

Screw it man! ):<
Im going hub tmmr to buy something for someone. :D
She's been super nice to me so i shall buy something super nice for her :D

Okay. Since nothing's going into my head, i shall go sleep, SOON.

2009-07-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

Thank God oral went well today! :D
Thank God that the teachers were super nice! :D
WHEEE! :D

TOMORROM TOMORROW! (;